Your Sacred “Source”
RECENTLY, I CELEBRATED MY 45th BIRTHDAY.
I don't usually worry about getting older, but I must admit that I'm not entirely comfortable with looking older. I'm acutely aware, however, that every day is a precious gift and each year an extraordinary blessing (due in part to loved ones that I’ve lost).
Therefore, I take my birthday as an opportunity to reflect on the past year, focusing on the growth, experiences, and changes that have taken place and also on what I could have done differently (which is exactly what I did not too long ago).
I was walking along my usual path on a particularly beautiful fall day when a poignant question arose within me. I asked myself what the most important lesson of my 44th year was. The answer, which was also a question, came to me immediately…
WHAT AM I MAKING “SOURCE?”
IT STARTS WITH PERSPECTIVE.
My mentors, coaches, and educational pursuits have all asked me this question many times (and in many different ways) over the past year, so much so that it has become a daily mantra for me. And as for the realizations that have followed in its wake (despite considerable self-resistance, at times)? A significant shift in perspective and a palpable and fluid transformative process.
By diving deep into the exploration of what I’m making “source,” I've learned that for most of my life, I not only reflexively identified as a woman of God but, within that identity, believed I was genuinely yielding to a higher power. In reality, however, I was mostly believing in myself, other people, or my circumstances. In other words, my experience with “belief” very much hinged on the external.
And so began the journey of learning to let go of this deeply ingrained and long-standing “untruth.” The result? A fundamental transformation of consciousness as a new truth took root…
God, Spirit, the Divine, is my supply for EVERYTHING…
both external and internal.
GOD IS MY SOURCE.
When I look to God as my Source, as my provider, my inspiration, my protector, I find my peace. I find my grounding.
God doesn’t change.
God is pure love and abundance- even if we may not see our experiences as such.
God is constant and provides everything I need.
I have undergone significant changes in the last three years and find that each new day brings forth even more. These changes (likely constant companions from here on out) urge me to continue to look inward.
And so, I’m settling into this feeling of “not knowing” and accepting change as a daily part of a life that’s fluid and evolving.
MY MESSAGE FOR YOU
Here’s what I’ve learned (and am learning still!)…
If we can shift our thoughts and old, limiting beliefs, release a "lack" mindset, and embrace faith- not in a religious way, but in a true God/ Spirit/Universe-based connection- our inner world WILL change (thus creating change in our outer worlds as well).
Change can take us out of alignment with ourselves for a time, but it will always bring us back to our truth with lessons learned (IF we allow it). We have the opportunity to learn about parts of ourselves that need to be changed, and we will see new parts of ourselves that have been forged in fire, we will grow in strength and become more authentic to our soul selves.
Change can bring us closer to our purpose, to what is designed for our lives. When we can feel the fear and loss that change can bring, and let God heal those wounds, we will feel the energy, the LOVE that only Spirit can bring. We will understand that no person, circumstance, amount of money, or societal expectations can actually fill us.
And so, when you begin to feel triggered, depressed, anxious, or confused, I encourage you to feel those feelings, get curious, and see what your experience is trying to show you by asking yourself THE question…